For me it is all about ones energy/mojo/vibe. If you come in with it you can turn anyplace into a happening place. IMO most people come to things too deep in fear instead of joy. Fear dooms things from the start. It attracts all kinds of bad energy and is a self fullfing prophecy. That is why most people live such unadventourous lives in the sense that they don't blindly follow their dreams. I have been wired with a backwards brain. I got lots of joy and little fear. People have covered their eyes so to speak as they have watched me do my life. They care about me and are trying to watch out for me but I feel they are just showing their fears. Nothing can fail if one is full of joy. Spit out your fears, let them go, and get back on the joy. Failure is nothing but part of the process of discovery and joy but our culture fears failure like death. We are programed not to fail. That is sad to me. People often ask me in educational circles how I have pulled off this bakery/pizza thing in a time when such endeavors are impossible to do supposidly. I simply answer I see it all and I walk to it with such joy and excitement that it has to happen. I have live my life this way and it only gets better and better the more I blindly follow my heart. I have had my rough days but the vision, joy, and excitement, never leave for very long because the alternative is fear and life is way too short to live in fear. Money? Screw it. That is the least, most simple, insignificant, part of a vision turning to reality. It is one's spirit, vibe, mojo. When I was doing music people thought I was nuts because I turned down things like playing on the soundtrack for the movie The Color of Money. That would have been with Eric Clapton and Robbie Robertson. Why did I say no> I said no because rehearsing and repeating, and scripting out music is of no interest to me. I would rather bag groceries at walmart. At least then I would have some spontaneous encounters with customers. I have been offered several jobs since I started this bakery that would pay me a lot more money and all I would be doing would be making pizzas/breads. I said no because it doesn't interest me more than working with disabled people in the context I am now in. I get to work with 15 kids a day and a few regular eduacation students that are bright, sad, juvenille offenders, impoverished. None of those jobs would allow me to continue working with so many kids. I could care less if I get famous in music, pizza, or breads. That means nothing. What means is having a passion, a need to do something, vision that has to be done. I connected deeply with Anthony of Una Pizza on this subject. It is a lonely road but the need to do something overides that negative. Dream big. I often reflect on a Helen Keller quote my wife gave me about 30 years ago when I was in a down moment with my concept of how to do music and the battle I was in with the music industry to accept it. It went-"life is a daring adventure or nothing at all." Hell, all we have left is to die so why not do some real living till then. Walter
PS: I am off for the next 2 weeks. Today was an exteremly busy day, probably our busiest to date. I had trouble not getting sad. My students will do most likely nothing but sit around their houses bored and sad. I feel that inside and wish we could run year round. I don't need vacations or retirement. I have seen the world, had my fun so to speak. My days are limited on this earth and I want to use them helping the disabled have meaningful lives. My next level dream is to buy a small apt building or a few condos and house my employees. This will happen when I retire from the schools and open my own shop. As adults my students end up living in group homes in the worst part of towns. Crime, fear, poverty, is the norm. My living spaces will be in an upscale town within a short walk to the shop. They can live their lives in safety and in happy vibes. I can't rush this dream. It is on its own time and I have to do my best work till it arrives.